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Saturday, April 23rd, 2005
3:27 pm	ooh lalaaaaaaaaa! this weekend was fun yesterday i went to the cinema and saw hide and seek it scared the shit outta me! anyways ttul bibi ana<3
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Monday, April 18th, 2005
3:57 pm	ditto ( this weekend!! )
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3:52 pm	battleofthebands 2005 abu dhabi ( BOTB photos )     Current Music: death of eighty songs
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Sunday, April 17th, 2005
7:06 pm	hey HEY please fill this in even if you dont know me or have like just met me. kaythnx. ana<3 What would you do if.... I committed suicide: I said I liked you: I kissed you: I lived next door to you: I started smoking: I stole something: I was hospitalized: I ran away from home: I got into a fight and you weren't there: Who are you? Are we friends? What do you think of me? Do you love me? Have I ever hurt you? Would you hug me? Would you kiss me? Are we close? Emotionally, what stands out? Do you wish I was cooler? On a scale of 1-10, how nice am I? Give me a nickname and explain why you picked it. :|Am I loveable? Describe me in one word. What was your first impression? Do you still think that way about me now? Do you think I'll get married? What about me makes you happy? What about me makes you sad? What reminds you of me? What's something you would change about me? How well do you know me? Ever wanted to tell me something but couldn't? Do you think I would kill someone? Are you going to put this on your journal and see what I say about you?
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6:58 pm	uh hi. dont you just sometimes get those days when youre just so emotional for no reason at all, and you just feel like crying? well.. thats what its like for me today. except i do kinda have a reason. i was just like thinking about everything and whats happened in my life and how quickly its gone. ana<3 Current Mood: gloomy Current Music: story of the year - anthem of our dying day
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Wednesday, April 13th, 2005
4:56 pm	And you'll choke on those words no one can swallow that much pride and my contentions all ring true every word you said was a lie and I thought we were friends but you changed that in time you're to caught up in the trends and your ego's on the line i slit your throat from ear to ear the wound was gasping for the air your scream so clear But every dream could never come true. Only in my sick mind can I do these things to you
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4:55 pm	YEAH YEAH YEAHS "Mr. You're On Fire, Mr." Twist, twist Twist, for Ice-Cream C'mon dance, Misdirection You can take new nicks for Blue Jeans But it's 3, or it's dead. Aww We are trapped, keep it violent I need tape, for perfection The most bright, I'm assuming Love the smell of your bath Aww Sci-Fi Half-Time Mr. you're on fire Mr. No sir I'm okay Mr. you're on fire Mr. No sir I'm okay Mr. you're on fire Mr. No sir I'm okay Mr. you're on fire Mr. No sir I'm okay......
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4:54 pm	complicated Complicated- I'm so scared that the way I feel, Is written all over my face When you walk into the room, I wanna find a hiding place. We used to laugh, we used to hug, the way that old friends do. But now, a smile and a touch of your hand, Just makes me come unglued. Such a contridiction, do I lie or tell the truth. Is it fact or fiction, Oh the way I feel for you. So complicated, I'm so frustrated. I wanna hold you close, I wanna push you away, I wanna make you go, I wanna make you stay. Should I say it. Should I tell you how I feel. Oh, I want you to know. But then again I don't. It's so complicated. Oh..just when I think I'm under control. I think I got a grip. Another friend tells me that, I'm always on your lips. They say I'm more than just a friend, they say I must be blind. Well, I admit that I've seen you watch me from the corner of your eye. Oh, It's so confusing. I wish you'd just confess. But think of what I'd be losin', if your answer isn't yes. So complicated I'm so frustrated, I wanna hold you close, I wanna push you away, I wanna make you go, I wanna make you stay. Should I say it, should I tell you how I feel. Oh I want you to know, but then again I don't, It's so complicated. Oh, I hate it. 'Cuz I've waited. So long for someone like you Oh, what do I do. Oh should I say it. Should I tell you how I feel. I want you to know,but then again I don't. It's so complicated..
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4:51 pm	random Heart- I just poured my heart out there's bits of it on the floor And I take what's left of it and rinse it under cold water And call him up for more And I say 'Baby, yes I feel stupid to call you, but I'm lonely And I don't think you meant it when you said you couldn't love me And I thought maybe if I kissed, the way you do, you'd feel it too..' Behaviour- You don't recognize behavior Or the spelling of your name And the shape that's in the mirror You swear it's not you swear its not the same the same Death- The clock is ticking and your still counting sheep You're still half asleep...Shrouded beneath a veil of tragedy When death comes calling Who will you believe?...When it's down to you and me Will you still stay on your knees? You Love Me But You Don't Know Who I Am.......... AHH sorry people for the randomness. im judy in a weird mood. typing up all this stuff i found in my journal and putting it on my eljay. mm. toodles. ana xoxo
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4:49 pm	hi. im finding all these poems and stuff and random lyrics ive wrotein my big fat miss chatterbox journal in my bix box under my bed. yes. i found the key. :D Scream I can scream into a pillow and laugh i can sing out my lungs to try to make this last but your sheets know what is good for me there for another boy just another toy weve grasped for drink and a lie so cheers to the ages and drink to the past with a hug from a candle well carve a hearth of wax skipping stones and bottles of champagne well lay by the storm and await the sad rain breathe into the fire love is such a cliche let it last, let it last
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4:49 pm	Care and now your at home, so far from me. and when i think about what you do to me i could scream cause you dont even care,no you dont even care. why don't you care and when they say,"whatever happened to her?" you shrug your shoulders and put your arms around another girl. and you better relieze i wont be there anymore. i wont even be there for you to ignore. and when all your big friends leave and the girls are gone dont espect to see me, cause i wont be there Cause i don't care cause you don't care and you dont seem to care that im dying inside just because of those damn looks you gave me. nothing will ever be the same. i may love you but im not stupid
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4:48 pm	Im just as lost as you Please help me cause im breaking down,this pictures frozen and i can't get out,please help me cause i can't get out im breaking down and i can't get out of here. Release me I'm Just As Lost As You Believe me I'm Just As Lost As You and every time I think ive finally made it I learn I'm farther away than I have ever been before I see the clock and its ticking away, and the hourglass empty What the Fuck do I have to say Please help me 'cause I'm breaking down, this pictures frozen and I cant get out Please help me 'cause I'm breaking down, this pictures frozen and I cant get out of here Believe me, I'm just as lost as you Believe me, I'm just as lost as you Keep it inside, the image portrayed As if I couldnt stand losing as if I couldn't be saved, no way A small confession I think I'm starting to lose it I think I'm drifting away from the people I really need A small reflection on when we were younger We had it all figured out 'cause we had everything covered Now were older its getting harder to see What this future will hold for us, what the Fuck are we going to be? Please help me 'cause I'm breaking down, this pictures frozen and I cant get out Please help me 'cause I'm breaking down, this pictures frozen and I cant get out of here Believe me, I'm just as lost as you Believe me, I'm just as lost as you So lost, I'm just as lost as you Oh well what am I going to do I'm afraid I'm falling farther away (from where I want to be) Please help me 'cause I'm breaking down, this pictures frozen and I cant get out Please help me 'cause I'm breaking down, this pictures frozen and I cant get out of here Believe me, I'm just as lost as you Believe me, I'm just as lost as you
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4:47 pm	What if. What if. What if I had jumped? What if I had given in? What if I had shot or swallowed or hung? What if I had given up? What would have happened? If I was no longer here. But I am here. And I didn't give in. I didn't give up. And I am stronger for it. I was so close, But then I was saved. By whom? Myself, or someone else? I may never know. But to whomever it was, I am deeply and eternally grateful. And I can never think like that. Never again. There are no what ifs. There is just what is. What is. It's the only thing that matters. Because you cannot change the past. You have no control over the future. But the present is a gift, use it wisely, And you will never have to worry about what was or what never was again. No more what ifs. What if is futile. There is only what is.
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Sunday, April 10th, 2005
3:24 pm	hey new layout! not very good though. made it myself. lia says the colours are wayyy too bright. anyways. i never know what to say anymore. im gonna make my LJ friends only from now on. there are certain people i dont want reading my lj >_< anyways if anyone could make me a friends only banner, that would be great ;D leave a comment if you can ;) ana xox Current Mood: listless Current Music: Nofx - bob
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Saturday, April 9th, 2005
6:02 pm	frank and gerrard = love.
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6:00 pm	:) Have you ever had that feeling where everything you see reminds you of that one person. When you can't go a whole hour without thinking of them. When you haven't talked to them in a whole day, your in the worst mood ever? And when you finally do talk to them, the smile never leaves you face. When they are mad at you, your whole world comes crashing down. Well that's what you are to me. Never forget it.
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Friday, April 8th, 2005
9:08 pm	Lonely, I'm Mister Lonely, I have nobody, for my own I'm so lonely, I'm Mister Lonely I have nobody, to call my own, I'm so lonely
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Sunday, April 3rd, 2005
3:05 pm	< 3333333333333 i remember the first time that we met,one of those nights we cant forget, where everything just seems so good.........
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Friday, April 1st, 2005
6:55 pm	"Failure By Design" Watch you on the one's and two's Through a window in a well lit room Become a recluse And I blame myself cause I make things hard and you're just trying to help And when I wake up you're the first to call This is one more late night basement song and I'm so sore My voice has gone to hell This is one more sleepless night because we don't believe in filler, baby If I could I'd sit this out (This is over when I say it's over) This is a lesson in procrastination I kill myself because I'm so frustrated And every single second that I put it off means another lonely night I gotta race the clock (I ignore it and it ignores me too) Lets say we go and crash your car? And every time I leave you go and lock the door So I walk myself picking at a chip on my shoulder I'm another day late and one year older It's failure by design And we just want sleep But this night is hell I'm sick and sunk and I blame myself cause I make things hard and you were just trying to help I got no gas(no gas) Winding out my gears This is one more day on the verge of tears And now my head hurts(head hurts) And my health is a joke And now I gotta stop because the headphones broke We don't believe in filler, baby If I could I'd sit this out (This is over when I say it's over) This is a lesson in procrastination I kill myself because I'm so frustrated And every single second that I put it off means another lonely night I gotta race the clock (I ignore it and it ignores me too) Lets say we go and crash your car? And every time I leave you go and lock the door So I walk myself picking at a chip on my shoulder I'm another day late and one year older It's failure by design I'm out of everything No one sleeps till we get this shit out on the shelves It's late, I'm faltering This time I got nothin' to say besides... Do Do Do. Do Do Do. Do Do Do. Do Do Do.(Baby I'm better than this) Do Do Do. Do Do Do. Do Do Do. Do Do Do.(Baby I'm better than this) Do Do Do. Do Do Do. Do Do Do. Do Do Do.(Baby I'm better than this) Do Do Do. Do Do Do. Nothin to say besides... (This is over when I say it's over) This is a lesson in procrastination I kill myself because I'm so frustrated And every single second that I put it off means another lonely night I gotta race the clock (I ignore it and it ignores me too) Lets say we go and crash your car? And every time I leave you go and lock the door So I walk myself picking at a chip on my shoulder I'm another day late and one year older I'm a failure by design
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